You will be Found

For those people who know me, know I am mad about musicals. So for my first blog post I thought it was rather apt to use a song title from one of my favourite musical as a way of saying something i feel is quite important.  

“You will be found” is from Dear Even Hendon, and I should quickly say Spoiler Alert it revolves around a teenager who has severe social anxiety. He writes letters to himself in order to build up his confidence. One day, his letter ends up in the hands of a student named Connor Murphy, who takes his own life, and while the musical is about friendship, love, grief, & of course the battles faced with Mental Health there is an important message that runs through out and that is ‘you are never alone’ 

So I hear you asking why are you talking about this song in particular in a blog that’s suppose to be about you Cranky Pancreas? 

Well… 

This song reminds me of the diabeties community. In what ever form you interact with it or how long you have been apart of it. You will always find a group of people who will surround you with understand, friendship and a little bit of madness. Which is the best kind of support there is there can never be to many mad ideas to solve a problem especially when diabeties is involved. Sometimes the most random solution is the only solution that works i have found over the years. 

The community is a place where people need no explanation as to why you’re up at 3am eating the entire contents of your fridge, or why going on holiday is like a polar expedition or why you write INSULIN on a notepad and stick it on the back of the front door just to ensure you remember the important juice before leaving the house. Whether it’s to share in your celebration or to remind you that having diabeties is HARD. There is always someone holding out a hand to help. That in my opinion is something beautiful. 

One thing i have learnt over the last 21 years of having this condition is diabeties give you an extended ‘family’ and like family you dont have to like everyone but you should indeed respect that everyone has a place within that family and deserves a seat at the table. 

Sometimes i feel like to be in the community i have to be someone 'Special' have completed some grand challenge or done something amazing but thats not true at all. I am not an elite athlete, or have a massive online following I don’t run marathons, climb mountains, or cycle around the world. I am just me, Kat, a person who loves building Lego, who is a dog and cat mum, who needs music blaring through her earphones to survive and is a wearing of the most awesome dungarees.  But what i have come to realise is I still have a voice, and what i have to say is important. I can contribute to the community in my own way. You don’t have feel like unless loads of people know of you, you are not valued by a community who know what it feels like to feel unseen. 

Last week was diabeties Awareness week and while the messages that come out were mainly positive about how you can be and do anything you want to, that having diabeties, does not define who you are but i have to say its a major part of you, it changes you as a person. Whether for better or for worse you are changed. Remember diabeties is relentless, you are doing the job of an organ, keeping yourself alive. That in itself is wonderful. 

I just want to say when you feel like nobody is there, when you feel that nothing is working that things cant get better your community will ALWAYS be there in what ever shape or form you need them. 

 

You Will Be Found. 

Thanks for stopping by 

Kat x